eye spy.
with my little eye.
EAGLE EYE.
eye love you. =)
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
i believe in yesterday
Honey,
You are the sweetest, most sincere, thoughtful, attentive boy. Your song to me on the guitar yesterday was absolutely beautiful. It touched my heart. Made my eyes water. I watch you play and sing these words, these words I'm fully attuned to, from these lips I'm so familiar with, and my insides flutter, as my whole body finds consolation in the goodness of your heart and the beauty in what we have. That was such a nice song, and that black cap looked so charming on my man-cake.
I was reading this sex god book.
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"Think about your friendships, the closest ones, the ones that have gone the distance. How often do you ask who is in charge? Do you ever find yourself questioning, "Where does the buck stop?
No, it's not even on the radar. Over time you've built reserves of trust and love, power and control become irrelevant. The healthier and more whole a marriage relationship is, the less you ask these kinds of questions."
... this is why I'm glad we're such great friends. this power issue between a couple he addresses for pages at a time, is irrelevant to us. so many, men especially, struggle with this. they want such submissive wives, without heeding any respect toward their wives wishes or feelings. it's simply "submit." i.e. my father. i read things like this, think of you, and count myself blessed.
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"Sex is not the search for something that's missing. It's the expression of something that's been found. It's designed to be the overflow, the culmination of something that a man and woman have found in each other. It's a celebration of this living, breathing thing that's happening between the two of them."
... we know this. and that's what's so beautiful to me.
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"If you're dating someone, what kind of man is he? Does he demonstrate that he's the kind of man who would die for you? What is his posture toward the world? Does he serve, or is he waiting to be served? Does he see himself out to make the world a better place?"
...yes, yes, yes. was all i kept thinking.
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I found this man whom I love and adore with everything. What we have is healthy. Our communication is good. We're serving the same Lord Jesus with earnest hearts. And frankly, sometimes, I lose words for what this all means to me. What my heart does when I look at you and connect with you like I do. All I can really say is "I love you, Frederick. I don't take the things you do for granted, and I notice every little thing you do. Especially the little things."
"I feel so safe in your arms."
You are the sweetest, most sincere, thoughtful, attentive boy. Your song to me on the guitar yesterday was absolutely beautiful. It touched my heart. Made my eyes water. I watch you play and sing these words, these words I'm fully attuned to, from these lips I'm so familiar with, and my insides flutter, as my whole body finds consolation in the goodness of your heart and the beauty in what we have. That was such a nice song, and that black cap looked so charming on my man-cake.
I was reading this sex god book.
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"Think about your friendships, the closest ones, the ones that have gone the distance. How often do you ask who is in charge? Do you ever find yourself questioning, "Where does the buck stop?
No, it's not even on the radar. Over time you've built reserves of trust and love, power and control become irrelevant. The healthier and more whole a marriage relationship is, the less you ask these kinds of questions."
... this is why I'm glad we're such great friends. this power issue between a couple he addresses for pages at a time, is irrelevant to us. so many, men especially, struggle with this. they want such submissive wives, without heeding any respect toward their wives wishes or feelings. it's simply "submit." i.e. my father. i read things like this, think of you, and count myself blessed.
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"Sex is not the search for something that's missing. It's the expression of something that's been found. It's designed to be the overflow, the culmination of something that a man and woman have found in each other. It's a celebration of this living, breathing thing that's happening between the two of them."
... we know this. and that's what's so beautiful to me.
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"If you're dating someone, what kind of man is he? Does he demonstrate that he's the kind of man who would die for you? What is his posture toward the world? Does he serve, or is he waiting to be served? Does he see himself out to make the world a better place?"
...yes, yes, yes. was all i kept thinking.
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I found this man whom I love and adore with everything. What we have is healthy. Our communication is good. We're serving the same Lord Jesus with earnest hearts. And frankly, sometimes, I lose words for what this all means to me. What my heart does when I look at you and connect with you like I do. All I can really say is "I love you, Frederick. I don't take the things you do for granted, and I notice every little thing you do. Especially the little things."
"I feel so safe in your arms."
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Memories
I'm excited for the day, today. There is some time we need to tend to. So it can blossom and bloom. Into a big sunflower of happiness radiating off of us.
How about the Clearwater Marine Aquarium? And some lunch at Frida's?
It will be excellent. =)
How about the Clearwater Marine Aquarium? And some lunch at Frida's?
It will be excellent. =)
Friday, May 1, 2009
may day
Happy May Day!
Happy May Day! I'm officially done with school. You're almost. So close.This post is a tribute to summer LoViNg.Love in the sun...this is what i want to see if i were to look into a crystal ball. this is what makes me excited.
*Lots of Cuddling
*North Carolina -Birchwood, the pasture, art and music, your home, Asheville, hiking, road trip, etc, etc.
*Gardening
*Gardening
*Camping Trips
*Kayaking
*Telescopes and Stars
*Adventures
*A Job-not looking forward to per say, but it'd be nice to work together and/or have $)
*Summer Trip: i.e. seeing your family (it would be a nice trip, wherever we ended up =) )
*Making cool Stuff
*Lots of Cuddling
*Exploring
*Basketball, Soccer, Football
*Reading...galore
*Jesus: growing, learning, loving, going deep.
*Lots of Cuddling
*Music-piano, guitar, drums, banjo (due time). Teach me everything.
*Bike Riding
etc, etc.
I'm so in love with you Frederick Allen. I went to the Y today with your sister. We were on our way, and I realized, I forgot to say goodbye. Aww, all I wanted to do was go back in time and give you a hug and kiss, tell you I love you profusely. I'm sorry. Heather and I had a nice time at the Y. We talked. I received a cheap membership. And I thought about how much I love you and how jealous of a lover I am because I'm so excited your school's almost over, and at that point, I'd have you all to myself. Helping you with music is like eating my vegetables. Not the best part, certainly enjoyable in your company, and certainly the most rewarding. YOU ARE ALMOST DONE.
Hip hip hooray!
Hip hip hooray!
Hip hip hooray!
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