Thursday, May 28, 2009

i believe in yesterday

Honey,
You are the sweetest, most sincere, thoughtful, attentive boy. Your song to me on the guitar yesterday was absolutely beautiful. It touched my heart. Made my eyes water. I watch you play and sing these words, these words I'm fully attuned to, from these lips I'm so familiar with, and my insides flutter, as my whole body finds consolation in the goodness of your heart and the beauty in what we have. That was such a nice song, and that black cap looked so charming on my man-cake.

I was reading this sex god book.

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"Think about your friendships, the closest ones, the ones that have gone the distance. How often do you ask who is in charge? Do you ever find yourself questioning, "Where does the buck stop?


No, it's not even on the radar. Over time you've built reserves of trust and love, power and control become irrelevant. The healthier and more whole a marriage relationship is, the less you ask these kinds of questions."
... this is why I'm glad we're such great friends. this power issue between a couple he addresses for pages at a time, is irrelevant to us. so many, men especially, struggle with this. they want such submissive wives, without heeding any respect toward their wives wishes or feelings. it's simply "submit." i.e. my father. i read things like this, think of you, and count myself blessed.
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"Sex is not the search for something that's missing. It's the expression of something that's been found. It's designed to be the overflow, the culmination of something that a man and woman have found in each other. It's a celebration of this living, breathing thing that's happening between the two of them."
... we know this. and that's what's so beautiful to me.
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"If you're dating someone, what kind of man is he? Does he demonstrate that he's the kind of man who would die for you? What is his posture toward the world? Does he serve, or is he waiting to be served? Does he see himself out to make the world a better place?"
...yes, yes, yes. was all i kept thinking.
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I found this man whom I love and adore with everything. What we have is healthy. Our communication is good. We're serving the same Lord Jesus with earnest hearts. And frankly, sometimes, I lose words for what this all means to me. What my heart does when I look at you and connect with you like I do. All I can really say is "I love you, Frederick. I don't take the things you do for granted, and I notice every little thing you do. Especially the little things."

"I feel so safe in your arms."

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