i have an addiction

i'm sitting here. it's 3:59 am. i have had a long day, but cannot sleep. will not sleep.

i'm sorry frederick. i didn't mean for this to happen, but the guilt is killing me. and yet i was so driven.

i wasn't in the right mind. i had a long day. and a long night. maybe i was bored. although it sounds terrible to blame it on boredom. i'm such a hypocrite. to blame you for momentary lapses when i have my very own.

i'm so sorry frederick. i'm not going to sleep tonight. it's just too much.

please know how much i love you. how much you mean to me. that i never meant for it to be this way.

frederick, i have an addiction.

a serious addiction.

to a sitcom.

dexter.

and it wasn't, until i watched 7 riveting episodes in a row, that i faced up.

admitting is step one. and consider this a formal apology.

=).

i love you.

and for real, what the hell was i thinking doing up so late? and watching those without you??? i just couldn't sleep. and they were all so good. this bay harbour killer. is he going to get caught? isn't he? what happens to lila? rita? you get the drift. i'm so ashamed! i'm one of those!! those with a connection to a television show. after i gave you trouble for watching them without me! that's jut because i liked them so much. =) and i wanted to know as much as you. and well, i just enjoy watching that with you. because you introduced me to it. and you're so cuddly.

i cannot wait to hold you tomorrow morning.

i am so excited.

;-)