seize her

last night was horrifying. i cannot think on it. i try though. to replay it all. but every time i do, my heart beats fast and my insides shreik, "mercy! please! please!" But then I think it could be healthy too. But maybe it's too soon.

my beautiful, beautiful darling. don't ever do that again.

ha. no, that wasn't planned. i know. bad joke.

but darling, i cannot express the fear that left me with. i love you so dearly. and that haunts me a bit.

i'll leave it at that. i am in class. distraught. my heartbeats can't keep steady pace.

that scared me so much. i cannot describe. i am so glad you are okay. i thank God for his mercy and understanding and healing hand.

thank you, thank you, thank you Jesus.

darling, i love you so dearly. You were cradled in my arms. And I screamed and cried. Your eyes rolled back.

I am so glad you are safe. I love you so dearly.

my thoughts are discombobulated.

just...

praise god.

praise god.

praise god.